Little buds

The past few days I have learnt that I cannot protect you from the world, I can only hope to cushion your falls. 

You've experienced your first fever, and your first pains as your gums stretch and inflame from the tiny little tooth working it's way up, trying so hard to break it's way through. 

But while my back is aching from carrying your little body that grasps at my neck so tightly to ensure I don't let go. My neck is knotted and throbbing from laying awkwardly so you can sleep on mamas chest where you feel safe. And my eyes are burning from less than two hours of broken sleep. I would still walk to the end of the earth and back stopping to let you rest on my chest and rocking you gently if only to ease your pain.

You still manage to give your mama the most precious smiles even though your mouth is aching.

So we sing our own version of MJ

"Smile, though your gum is aching, smile even though it's breaking. When there are clouds in the sky..you'll get by, if you just Smile" 

Four months of happiness

Words are so funny. Other people say "your 'only' four months", but for me you are 'already' four months. Time is passing so quickly now that you are here. The nine months of growing you inside seemed like an endless wait yet almost half that time has passed and I feel like you were only just born. 

In four months you have achieved so much and made a huge impact on the world. You can now smile, laugh, roll over both directions, recognize your mama, daddy and poppy. You can grasp and hold toys, bring them to your mouth. You can mimic mama by copying her poking your tongue out and you're starting to try to coordinate your limbs to crawl.

But of all the things you have achieved, the most amazing to me is seeing how you bring the love and happiness out of the world. Everywhere we go people smile at us. I feel so much more connected to the community thanks to you. Neighbors we have never met run across the street to catch us as we get home to bring you gifts and get a closer look at you.

In a world where most people walk by completely ignoring each other, you at only four months of age can make people stop and admire. If only for a brief moment you bring happiness to their day and they can't help but smile when you do. 

I wish I could live everyday of your life twice, but if I could I'm sure I'd only want to thrice! 

Daddy's gift

Your daddy has always been very romantic, so thoughtful, loving and giving. But the best gift he ever gave me is you. I want to document the precious moments as you grow, so I can look back on these stories when your older and remember the days when you preferred to sleep in your mamas arms more than anything else in the world.